finished a measly stinking 9th... This is actually worse then cashing simply because the manner of my defeat in the last 30 minutes.

Ok, I was doin the 55k and this tonight and i cashed in 55k before losing a 65%/35% shot for 150k chips , (surprise surprise) then in the nightly i was going strong late on cos i decided once i cashed to f*ck the tight play that people advocate in 2k startin stack mtt, I decided to go back to what used to be good for me ( raising all the time) and it was working i was not hittin any nice hands but the table were lettin me get away with alot, i got re raised several times pre flop but my stack was definitely going up and some good post flop bluffs was coming through too.

Then down to 2 tables i take a horrific beat when my A-Q loses vs A-J for a huge pot all in preflop when a J hits on the river....hmm thats not nice, then again before FT I get AdQd , ss pushes utg for 75k I movein for 100k and he has 8-3 and pairs his 3.....hmmm I really dont win allins. Then I make FT with 25k bb 10k which is a f*cking kick in the nuts and wait a few hands before deciding AJ is good enough then the same twat who busted me with AJ vs My AQ picks up AQ and isolates and OBVIOUSLY wins. Bye Bye Ciso.... 8 places away from $29k and instead i get 1/10th of that.

Not to sound arrogant, but I really CANT be playing bad if i cashed the only 2 tourneys i entered. I just cant win a f*cking all in. I am really really not enjoying online lately, and I am not really winning, If I win like tonight its small or just about covering my expenses. Ive been thinking lately I am much more suited to live and Its really true I am.

I used to take beats well , lately I dont give a shit I just get angry, theres only so much a guy can take ya know, and ive been fair sport to this wretched game since the turn of the year.

3 times in the big sunday mtts i have gone deep to falter, 2 FTOP events I went agonisingly close just to fall, the nightly I have come to the final 3 tables on about 3/4 times to fall and I havent got a result.


I am aware I am whining shit loads now btw, but for a guy who wastes enough money anyway - to keep comin this close to money which would put me in a situation where I could do something different i.e. help my family, invest some etc. It just seems unfair.

I got to go back to uni in about 10 days and when I go back I want to be doin alot of work to prepare for exams so poker will be toned down = why i want a score before then.

If I dont hit a $10/$15k score by then there is a very very strong possibility I am quitting for a good period online.

I am not a guy whos gonna bust my ass playing for peanuts, I am too proud and think im better then that.


Anyway, enough whining , I am tired and hungry and a bitter loser so I best sleep.

Anyone who doesnt play poker reading this...peice of advice.....Dont Start!



Ciso

best advice ever!

yeah good advice... u dont normally discourage tho ciso... why teh change of heart?

Don't kid yourself, you can make 10x more playing online than you can by playing live