It just won't end, I just can't win a showdown the last few weeks, I didnt play online during the week, played at casino mostly and got no results.

Today's big sunday mtts, I really cant afford just buying in willynilly but I played a $8 satelite for Sunday Million, got through it. Then Aelred said earlier he'd stake me for 50% of the winnings on crypto's big 40k sunday mtt. I then took one shot and bought in myself for the Warm up. So 3 mtts, and me focused, I should have a shot I thought. I woke up around 8am, ate, chilled out, had a shower , watched some tv, kept my mind off poker till the mtts started.

Warm up starts and early on I get AK suited, late position, ep brought it in for 700 I recall, with blinds only at 100/200, I could haver re raised but didnt want to take a coin flip if he had QQ,JJ so i flat called. FLop was a nice J-5-8 (2h) I had AKh, he led out for 1k, which was about 1/2 pot. I made it 3,500 and he moved in on me, I insta called obviously and he had 5-6h. Not a great hand for me as it takes away 2 outs, but still 13 outs two cards to come, is a good shot. Whiff Whiff.Eh, what new right?

Sunday Million, I couldnt get anything at all first hour, complete junk, nothing even worth taking a flop with really. next hour im short and have shoved maybe twice the whole mtt , both times with respectable, then I get AK and shove again from ep, get a call from the bb, who has AA. Crikey , give me a chance at least right?

Well, I actually wrote the hands and notes next to the hand for the Entire Sunday 40,000 GTD on Cryptologic site. I wanted to think of ways I could improve the way I played a hand, or other possible lines. I didnt write everyhand, just ones where I could enter the pot or did.

So encase anyone wants to see how to not win a hand for the last 2 hours, then bubble in a big mtt , here it is :

£40,000 Crypto MTT

Level 1 10/20 2,500
5-5, co,call 60 raise from ep BB calls. raiser bets 100 into 200 I pass on Q-4-4 (2c) flop.Too early to get creative there imo.

QQ mp,I riase to 70,button calls,flop J J 9 (2d), I bet 125, called. Turn 8, I check call 200 . (want to keep pot small here), river 7. I check he shoves 2,300 ??fold. 2,300 ( Bet turn here maybe? or Check riase turn ? )

AQ, call mp raise for 60,flop K-10-3, check check, turn 2, he bets pot I pass,1,965 (Re riase pre ? , in position here too. Re raise might be a better line)

8-8, utg makes it 60, I call. Flop KQ7, he bets 80 I pass. 1,905 ( Re raise pre flop here? I really dont like it, Im playin for set right?)

3-3, co,mp makes it 80,I folded. 1,875, I lost 600 up till now, dont wanna bleed off another 80 here. Re raise/call/fold all viable here...

A-5,mp, 1 limper, I flat call in pos,A-6-J flop. (2h), limper bet 60 into 70, I float him here.Turn Ad.He checks, I fire 120, he makes it 880. I fold.1,675. I dont think I played this bad here, I mean im in position blinds are small, and I have an Ace. I could re raise flop to see, but I prefer to flat call see if he shuts down , he does! but then c/r , smelt like A-10 + maybe 6-6? I dont call here though less i know im against a loony.

AQd, utg, I flat call.1 mp limp.flop 9c7c2s,sb bets bb calls. I fold

Level 2 15/30 1655

10cJc,button,co makes it 60, I make it 150.bb calls, co folds. Flop K-4-3.he checks, I lead 220, he shoves. Fold. 1,240 BB calls,on this site it really doesnt mean hes that strong, he prolly had AK though looking at the play throughout, I re riase to have the lead , isolate the co and play a flop in position. Ridicolously , bb calls, and messes up plan. I take one shot only.

Qs10s, utg +1, utg limps, I call, flop Jd7d2d,checked round,8h,river 4s,fold to a bet. 1,210 Im not betting into 3 people on that flop, terrible flop. calling vs folding pre flop too? Can fold there pre flop sometimes i think. but pre flop passive table = Limp.

co,KJ,I raise to 75,sb calls, flop K Q 3 (2c), I bet 150 he folds.1,270.Limp pre flop? I think in position, call or riase is fine. Got to bet sizeable on that flop I think though.

Level 3 25/50 1,270

QQ button , I make it 150, bb shoves , I call . He has AA. I hit Quads. 2,415 In this situation with 1,200 and QQ on button, no decision, just ul to run into AA. Easy call 99.9% of time.

JJ Utg 1, utg limps, I make it 175,button just shoves for 2,550,I fold. 2,240. I like my fold cos hes got massive M. He knows I have a hand, so his push is for value, AK miniomum, KK,AA in his range too for sure. I could call hopin to race? I could gamble early on ?

mp/lp, Qh8h, 1 ep limper, 4 of us see 6-6-2, flop,I bet into them 160, they pass,2315. Could fold pre flop?

AK,mid,someone makes it 350, 7bbs, I move in.He calls AQd.I hold. 4,705, My logic, is he doesnt raise 7bbs, with AA,KK. He has a hand for sure, but not AA,KK and if he does gl to him, I m moving in for value, I ll take a flip to double up now if i have to. On this mtt they can have AJ,AQ too, and he did.

1st BREAK 4,705

Level 4, 50/100 4705

2-4 off, in bb, riase to 300 and 2 calls. Fold.Even consider a call here? 200 for pot of over 1k? Fold is prolly wiser still.

A-3sb, 2 limps, complete. flop 332,check,button bets pot,I smooth call.turn 10,check check, river 7, he has 875. I fire 800 he folds. 5,305 Re raise flop?

99 , button, ep limp, and 1900 stack raises to 400, hes been tight/passive up till now. I fold. Take a shot and put him in? Flat call isnt smart here imo, cos he only got 1,400 behind.

button,KhQh,a 537 shoves, I fold. No value, no implied odds..Call , gamble for only 10% of stack... KQ suited beatin his range etc.

KQ,ep,I flat call 1st in.JJ8 flop,check check, bb bets min on 2 turn. I let him have it. 5,055 Raise pre flop, 1st in ? Bet flop ? Re raise turn ? all viable, but with only 250 in there, I not bluffin that pot often, could bet flop for minimum, riase pre flop im oop, I dont like KQ that much ya know. Could make it 250 I guess.

Level 5 75/150 5,055

bb,3-3,1.1k shoves mp,then anotehr calls, fold.4905.Both had AK, could try and take 2 stacks out ? Too hard to beat 2 ppl here though imo.

button,QcJc,utg made it 425,fold.Peel a flop? in position.

1 ep limp, i limp in mp/lp 8-6h,another limp, then a 1,050 raise. fold.4,680. Just fold pre flop ?

AQco,mp makes it 450,lp makes it 1,200, i fold.AQ cant be good ? New table too. Has to be a fold I think, what other line possibly? Shove? Turn AQ into 2-7..?

UTG 1, KJ, fold? Could call? , hope to see cheap flop maybe?

QQ utg, I make it 425,mp calls,bb makes it 1,200.I shove, he calls JJ. I hold.8960

Level 6 100/200 8960

bb, QJc, fold to 600 riase from mp. Take a flop , oop tho...

button, A5h, i call,sb is ss,flopAs9s2d,i bet 350 into 600,they pass. 9,360.Raise pre flop?

4-4, utg 1, I call,hu vs bb,958 flop, check cechk, turn 2, he bets pot. I fold. 9160, Raise pre or fold too viable. Take 1 shot on flop? I dont think he folds 8 or 9, so why riase , to get 5 to fold maybe?

66,utg, folded. Dont wanna bleed more esp oop, pretty much think i gotta see it cheap then hit aswell to win. call, big stack, can afford 200 ?

AJ mp,raise to 525,co calls,flop JJ4, 2s, I bet 525, he calls, turn 8, I bet 1020 he calls,river 3, I bet 2,850 he calls.14,080. Shove river?

bb,34s,mp raises to 600, button calls. Fold.Peel?

sb,Q6,ep limps, I call,10-5-3 . Check fold. 13,680. Fold preflop oop with junk... or pay 100 for 500.?

KsQs,co,limp, dont want to raise and fold to a push.bb makes it 800 to go , i fold. 13,480. Raise pre flop.call in position, even tho he only got 1700 behind?

BREAK 13,480

Level 7 150/300 13,480

lp, i riase to 750 with 55, they pass.13,480,limp? with bb @ 300 riase is better i think though.

JJ i make it 850 in mp,they fold. 13,480

A10 button, i make it 800,3,500 shoves i fold. 12,200.2,700 more, hes ss, call it off.

Level 8 150/300 Ante 25 12,205

KQh, mp, limp in,guy to left makes it 1,500 fold. 10,500Dont limp in at this stage, raise or fold?

complete junk this level ,blinds seriously taking its toll. 9,900

Level 9 200/400 9755

10s, utg 1, I make it 1k,they pass,10,700

K10 co, i make it 1,200. they pass.10,900

A10, button,1 limp from ep, I call too,flop K-9-5,fold to bet from limper. 8,555 Raise to 1,200 pre ? Isolate limper. Fold pre ? Too weak imo.


BREAK 8,255 Really cant get nething going, im at a table where they arent going to be foldin reasonable hands, the only button raise i dont all mt got re raised all in, so im just waitin for good cards or favorable situations. None came up last hour so I've blinded off 3/4k. Still in, got reasonable/bad M but one big hand and its game on again. 60 left, 40 pay.

Level 10 300/600 8,255

BB,Q-10,fold to mp raise. 7,580
SB,A-K,3k stakc shoves,I isolate . he has 99, I lose.4,300

button AJ,shove they pass.5,800

KJ, co, shove. they pass.7,300


AK, mp,ep riases to 1,600,I shove.he folds.10,400

BB,A-7,fold to a push. 9,600
SB,Q-4,fold to mp riase. 9,200

22 , mp, fold. ?

AJ utg, fold. Thought it was all in or fold with 8800, and im not so short i have to push.

BB,8-3, fold to lp raise. 7900
sb,94, fold to ep shove.7,650

A6 mp, fold. 9 off the cash, could shove still? 11bbs...tough one.

AK , utg, shove for 7,100.they pass. 8,700

Level 11 400/800 8700

BB,A-9,fold to ep raise.7,800
SB,Q-4,fold to mp raise.7,300

Q10 lp, raise to 2,000. Get re raised all in, fold. 5,000...close to the cash, I know he has a big hand, cos hes thinkin im calling with 5k behind. Steal gone wrong i guess? CAll, for value, 2k in only 5k behind , 800 bb.

BB,QQ,ep shoves, so does another i call. they have AQ, KK. 44th....40 PAY






I am feeling so deflated right now its hard to put in words, I know I am a strong player and am improving but my results really dont show any potential of late, I cant find a site where cash games are good for me , and live tournaments have too much variance moreso then online. I fear even if i get some kind of result soon it won't be enough, I mean im supposed to be professional now and I just lost all the f*cking time lately. So when I get a result is taht how long its going to take ? like 3/4 months or something. Its not worth it, I've made quite a few errors in the past , I hope choosing poker isn't another to put on the list. God help me.


Ciso