Okay, here's what has been up with me. I basically realized that on my first deposit I wasn't playing for the right reasons. Rather than playing to improve my game, studying and learning from mistakes, I instead was too wrapped up on making a profit. As a result of this I continually made stupid decisions, was on tilt a lot (somewhat) and just never felt comfortable at the table.

I took a few days off after withdrawing my money, I had convinced myself it wasn't the time for poker but I then got thinking about my play. I realized exactly as I previously stated, that I was playing for the wrong reasons. I decided to redeposit and take it more seriously, with the intent of learning and improving rather than turning my $50 into something special.

I started with the same $48 at PokerStars and immediately began playing in the same stupid fashion as before, dropping me down to $35 after the first day or two. I'd basically thrown away numerous tournament entries on stupid decisions, one...

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