what keeps you going?

Ensano · by **Ensano** » Thu Mar 19, 2009 3:48 am GMT

Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about things and I've always been curious about what drives people. What keeps people pushing foreward, looking up and buckling down for work or anything else in their life.

For almost the past 6-8 months I can't seem to do anything. On the surface I feel like I'm just being lazy but I can't seem to find the fight in me anymore. I can't go to school. I can't work out. I can't bring myself to do anything.

I'm in my 2nd year of school and my GPA has dropped from a 4.0 (out of 4) to probably a 3.00 (if I'm lucky) plus I will have to redo a couple classes in the summer and next year. I don't find school hard at all when I go. I can even just read a lot of the chapters the day before the test and still find an A up my ass somewhere, but even lately I can't even bring myself to open the books.

I think my teachers are starting to crack down on me though because I always seem to have some sort of excuse for everything. Even I'm starting to get tired of hearing them.

For a long time now I just don't see the point of anything. I don't know what it is I'm working for and I don't know where it is I'm supposed to go. If I didn't know any better I'd swear I was just having a mid-life crysis but having just turned 27 without having even started a life yet that doesn't make much sence.

I feel like that guy in the movie (you know the one. Hates his job, goes back to his lousy apartment every night, but then something life-changing happens like he meets the super-hot devil, or some super-hot badass chick saves him from being killed and tells him that he's the only one that can help her.) but that day never comes.

I don't know when this started of how this happened, but I know it feels like something just turned off.

I can't sleep at night but I'm always tired. Nothing interests me. I literally spend my days doing nothing now. I can be bored out of my mind but damned if I'd want to leave the house for anything.

I'll know I want something but I can't seem to be bothered to reach for it; even when it's right in front of me.

I don't know why I'm writing this on here because this will just be subject to ridicule or just be ignored outright. (nothing on anyone in particular it's just been kinda the tone of the forum lately) Maybe that's why...

Maybe just posting it somewhere where it doesn't matter will make me feel better. Maybe just saying it will make a difference to me.

Kemics · by **Kemics** » Thu Mar 19, 2009 8:27 am GMT

I think it's a very valid and legitimate way that most people feel at some point in their life, especially towards the end of their studies/university/college etc.

Do you have a hobby or anything recreational things you enjoy?

Push through till you're finished with university, then go backpacking round Europe, i'd recommend going traveling to anyone :-D

i know it sounds kind of stupid, but one thing i did recently which made quite a big difference was to make a rule not to use my computer or television for a week. I was amazed at how much time i procrastinated away using them, but in a really negative and unproductive way too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x9-1jWAW4KA

Muck · by **Muck** » Thu Mar 19, 2009 2:42 pm GMT

I know exactly how you feel. I think some people might even consider it a form of depression.

I think environment is important. The success of my friends encourages me to work hard sometimes. Finacial security is a big one too. I hate my job at the moment but if I stick at it for four years I can wipe out my mortgage. Then I can do more of what I want.

Seeing my friends is the only thing I really look forward too. Chillin, drinking, playing some LAN games and catching up. Most of the sh*t in between is just â€œlife adminâ€

kompis · by **kompis** » Tue Mar 31, 2009 5:46 pm GMT

i think if u just find some decent weed u can be pretty contented in life

Garoen · by **Garoen** » Tue Mar 31, 2009 9:48 pm GMT

what kompis said. haha.

but seriously though,

as muck mentioned most of life is pretty much commute-->work-->commute-->eat-->sleep. Maximise the time you DO have! Instead of being a shut-in on a day when you have a very light workload from school, go out and walk around your city, get familiar with it. play some cash games at the local casino. see a movie in the theater and get a huge bucket of popcorn w/ a soda. WHATEVER IT TAKES. remind yourself what you like about life and why you work hard for things you want to have.

Ciso_B · by **Ciso_B** » Mon Apr 06, 2009 9:05 am GMT

Get in touch with God Ensano. Whether you beleive now or not, I know alot of people who have faith in god to be very happy people.

Or , jog, jogging seems pretty thereputic?, and exercise is always good. You might also find the will to do things etc , if you jog or work out etc.

If these things don't appeal to you, drink some whiskey.But dont commit suicide!

KingOHearts · by **KingOHearts** » Mon Apr 06, 2009 8:22 pm GMT

tbh sounds like clinical depression

supafrey · by **supafrey** » Sat Apr 11, 2009 3:29 pm GMT

Yep. Lower-class says God and middle-class says "depression". How new!

KingOHearts · by **KingOHearts** » Sat Apr 11, 2009 3:37 pm GMT

supafrey wrote:Yep. Lower-class says God and middle-class says "depression". How new!

I suspect your derision is pointed more at the God answer than mine, but I'm just saying that the symptoms Ensano reports are pretty consistent with what I know about clinical depression. You can google those no matter what "class" you're in.

KeanuReeversYou · by **KeanuReeversYou** » Sat Apr 11, 2009 4:13 pm GMT

Take MDMA

kompis · by **kompis** » Sat Apr 11, 2009 6:35 pm GMT

life is life, la la la la la la

supafrey · by **supafrey** » Sun Apr 12, 2009 11:37 am GMT

KingOHearts wrote:
supafrey wrote:Yep. Lower-class says God and middle-class says "depression". How new!

I suspect your derision is pointed more at the God answer than mine, but I'm just saying that the symptoms Ensano reports are pretty consistent with what I know about clinical depression. You can google those no matter what "class" you're in.

To be fair I think both your point and Ciso's are equally laughable. =)

Same search for an excuse, just a different answer because you're richer than him. If being a lazy twenty-something that wants the benefits of hard work without having to put in any actual effort is depression....

It's just middle class entitlement getting a kick in the nuts by an economy and geography that makes being "that bright kid in your elementary school" not enough to get money, free time and hot pussy. Drugging yourself up and mentally masturbating in front of some pretentious pharma-pusher for an hour a week isn't going to "fix" ensano's problems, they're just going to make him more content with his pile o' shit. Yay!

HalfSugar · by **HalfSugar** » Sun Apr 12, 2009 12:25 pm GMT

^^ All of this. I actually can't believe what you wrote Ciso.

Ciso_B · by **Ciso_B** » Sun Apr 12, 2009 3:23 pm GMT

Hey its not my fault, i should have been brought up in ad 20. Im a victim of my own generation!

It's societys fault! (not mine...tehe)

jimmer · by **jimmer** » Sun Apr 12, 2009 4:41 pm GMT

Ensano wrote:For almost the past 6-8 months I can't seem to do anything. On the surface I feel like I'm just being lazy but I can't seem to find the fight in me anymore. I can't go to school. I can't work out. I can't bring myself to do anything.

Ensano, I think you should buy a book called 'Become your own life coach' by Fiona Harrold.

I think this will really help your currrent situation.

It costs around Â£12 ($18'ish). If you can't get your hands on a copy, I can lend you mine, but I would like it back afterwards.

You don't need to read every chapter, as some will not be relevant, but most will be so give it a go.

PM me if you want to chat more.

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